I will survive

I just need to remind myself of that fact…I will survive.

God is testing me…and I ain’t passing

I keep thinking that there will be a rainbow at the end of this rain shower.

I am not asking for a pot of gold. I will be very happy and thankful if I get an umbrella. I just want a way to keep my head above the water and I want the thoughts of ending it all to be erased from my mind and soul. I want to truly believe that I am not cursed because I quit my job. I want to believe that I am the same woman that handled her mother’s death and came out of that pain learning that there was more to life than just myself…but Lord, if you don’t give me a sign. If you don’t help me get out of this dark abyss called my current life…I am not not going to be able to hold on to the faith that there is some good in this world.

Everyone deserves a second chance at making their life what it was meant to be…